I'm broke as fuck and don't get paid for another two weeks, So if anyone can help me out I would greatly appreciate it- Even sharing this around would help!!

Some examples of recent stuff I have done:

 

Oops. May have said in march that i'd be on here more in summer. It's december so clearly that didn't happen. Aaaaaand my tablet's just broken on me recently so i'll be gone for a while off here haha.

If anyone needs me, most of you have my skype-- Or you can find me on twitter just kind of lurking, and posting occasionally- my handle there is Shortenxhistory

    Sorry I've not really been on here much at all. Istg i'm not gone or anything- If anyone needs me i always have skype open and stuff so i'll answer anyone who needs me on there.
    But anyway- Sorry, i've been busy with work and uni assignments, plus I recently joined the girls volleyball team here, so i've had training and such too to keep me busy My first year ends at the end of april though, so maybe over the summer i'll be able to get on here more? Idk- Depends how busy work gets during that time really <3

    I feel like an idiot- I'm stuck sitting here in my room unable to leave because i'm honestly scared. Last night (and continuing on tonight) this one guy in my flat was leading the others into chanting my name and banging on my door repeatedly- Considering the fact that I have anxiety this doesn't exactly help much. I'm an introvert anyway- last year I spent the whole year without making a friend in college because I couldn't bring myself to talk to anyone- and this honestly just deters me from heading out. I hate being in the spotlight and despite seeming fairly open a lot of the time, I'm really not until I know i can trust someone, so having people chanting my name really fucking loudly actually hurts- Especially considering at home I was yelled at constantly for nothing by my parents and sister.

    I've spent the last like... maybe 4 hours, trying to go through but I keep hearing them all talking and turning around like nope i'll go later when they're asleep (note that since they're all drinking this'll be at like 5am as it has been the past few nights). All i'm trying to do is put a plate in the wink, but i physically can't leave the room because i'm actually afraid to do so.

    I would just go out and be like yo homies stop but like.. that's frightening too? I don't care much about what people think of me but when i'm going to be living with these guys until june next year, i kind of can't just fuck everything up y'know.

    Lays here tbh. idk how to deal with people, or this in general.



    -- And right as i was about to post this they banged on the door again. i'm about to fucking cry istg i'm honestly terrified over nothing right now.

   I'm honestly really excited- I've got my place in university now and i've been told when I can get the keys to my dorm room and stuff- So i'll be moving up north to Aberdeen on the 12th September. I mean classes don't start until the 21st, but since Freshers week (Aka the week specifically meant for everyone to go out and get to know one another, the majority of the time ending in everyone getting pissed) is from the 14th-20th, I'm going up as soon as I can so I'm there for that.

    There's a facebook page for the set of accommodation I'll be staying in meant for people to find one another before even moving in and stuff and another girl from my set wrote on it like is anyone in Flat 56 so I've been talking to her and stuff and jfc I'm actually really excited to move up there now cause i'll at least not be awkward and have spoken to no one x'D

    So, in short, next month I might be a little inactive between work and uni starting, but I'll still try to get on to see you all as much as I can! ;;